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My Name Is Joseph Romero . I am 61 years old and live in San Antonio Texas . Right now in my life I have learn to love and to embrace being a Libertarian and a free Thinker. I love Art and Music and Ham radio and Astronomy and playing the keyboardand love photography . I love divesity and trust and communcation . I fine transparency better left to windows and believe that labels should be left on bottles and not people. I am a fun loving and outrageously guy with big heart.
I hate all forms of "INTOLERANCE" I am now and learn about myself and comfortable in my own skin. I am abstract and into expressing myself and artistic nude modeling which i have now done a few picture in the last year. I am a Vietnam veteran and I have PTSD from the War and also the Child abuse from my alcoholic father and sexual abuse from a family member that went on and on and nowhere to run for help . My art is my way to deal with PTSD and OCD and S.I. and R.A. & Fibromyalgia . I have sexual issue which I have had to work out and learn to express emotions and I make no Apologies for who I am .The first rule is not to be ashame of my body which I have cause self injury for 38 years of my life for the sexual attack and abuse that went on and the shame that I have felt for almost a life time. I have been an "activist" on Veterans issue and help groups. I dont think I think I am a good artist but it my way tpo express things that I have learn and things I dont understand experience yet . I know in my future journals I will express provoking thing which I hope you all can help me to do. as I learn to integrate the chemistry and stop denying surpress feelings and work them though Art Therapy .Between happiness & grief and layers and layers of issue `s I sometime am a riddle in my self. and I am in the experimental part of my life. A person that never had a chance looking for my place in the world around me. I want to take my hell as I learn to surrender my pain and the S.I. which have stop me from being a complete person.

learning to be complete and a be myself.